What made you stop being an addict?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

This was February 2019.

2 dead in Las Vegas Strip shooting, with suspect known but not yet arrested, police say - ABC News

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

What is the one unconventional piece of Stoic advice that has significantly improved your life?

And I can also talk to them now.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I did it in my administrator's office.

Why don't the EU leaders who want even more war instead of peace send their sons (and daughters) to fight in Ukraine? Zelensky accepts volunteers this very moment. 3,000 dollars a month, all expenses paid.

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Why am I totally different than others? Why do I have a problem with my basic knowledge about society and reality? Why am I dumb and stupid?

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

Earth's energy balance is rising much faster than scientists predicted, and we have no idea why - Live Science

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

What are the biggest challenges in training multimodal AI models?

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Read that again ☝️

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Why do many men like women's breasts?

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

Just keep trying

Otsuka tops Vera Therapeutics in kidney disease study showdown - statnews.com

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

Donkey Kong Bananza Is Officially the Best-Selling Game on Amazon Right Now - IGN

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

“Very Odd” New Sea Monster Identified After Decades of Mystery - SciTechDaily

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

What would you change in the "Game of Thrones" storyline if you were one of the writers of the TV series?

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Now how do you quit your addiction?